I-I-I-I I-I-I-I I'm trying, but still, I close my eyes The dreaming, bringing his face to mine (Lock the door) Constant buzzing all through the night The fighting rips me all up inside (On the floor) I pace, I run my mouth I pray and wait I cross out his name on the page (How long 'til) This washes away? (How long 'til) My body is safe? (How long 'til) I walk in the light? (How long 'til) This heart isn't mine? The rise and fall of his chest on me I'm trying, but still, it's all I see The violent current of energy I hide it away and underneath (Lock the door) I shake I promise every day to change I cross out his name on the page (How long 'til) This washes away? (How long 'til) My body is safe? (How long 'til) I walk in the light? (How long 'til) This heart isn't mine? Take this wildness away, ah And away, ah And away, ah I'm trying, but still, I close my eyes The dreaming, bringing his face to mine (Out the door) I pace, I run my mouth I pray to change I cross out his name on the page (How long 'til) This washes away? (How long 'til) My body is safe? (How long 'til) This heart isn't mine? I-I-I-I just want him in my arms, hey I-I-I-I I-I-I-I